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My Personal Story of Waiting Upon the Lord

Many of you know personally or have read here on the blog, of my struggle waiting upon the Lord for a full time ministry position for my husband and our family.  If this your first time reading my blog, now would be a great time to read my previous post entitled "When God Says No, He's Saying I Love You."  In it I share more details then I'll go into here. 
To put it in a nutshell, we've been waiting 9.5 years to find it.  9.5 years of praying, waiting, dreaming, crying, desiring and persevering.  Approximately 100 resumes printed and sent.  Countless pastor finder google searches.  Many phone calls from friends and family with ministry suggestions.  And a ridiculous amount of "what if's"...
After all of this, God has said YES!
Yesterday my husband accepted the call to pastor a small, independent Bible church just an hour north of my home town here in Wisconsin.  Here's the amazing story of God's perfect timing...
For the past 9 years on the ver…
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When God says No, He's saying I Love You

We've been conditioned to believe that getting what we want from someone is the equivalent of them saying, "I love you".  A quote from one of my favorite movies, The Princess Bride:  Buttercup: Farm boy, polish my horse’s saddle. I want to see my face shining in it by morning. Westley: As you wish. Grandpa: “As you wish” was all he ever said to her. Buttercup: Farm boy, fill these with water - please. Westley: As you wish. Grandpa: That day, she was amazed to discover that when he was saying “As you wish”, what he meant was, “I love you.”  However romantic this notion is, the idea that hearing "yes" also means "I love you", is a very dangerous lie!  Why?  Because when desiring something for our lives, God often answers "no" yet his love for us is infinite and unchanging!
Have you ever wanted something so bad, you thought about it every day?  You hoped and dreamed for it?  You prayed for it? You begged God for it? You even purposely arranged your life…

How to Pray Like a Pro Part 2: The Lord's Prayer

As you can see from the title, this post is part 2 on the subject of prayer.  If you haven't yet read part 1 you may want to as it covers the verses leading up to the Lord's Prayer.
As promised, it's time to break down a portion of scripture known as the Lord's Prayer, Matthew 6:9-13.
Jesus starts out in vs 9a:"this then is how you should pray." He's literally giving an outline as to how to structure a prayer.  We must remember that before Jesus came, people did not pray to God on their own.  They had to go to the temple and have a priest pray for them.  Why?  Because Jesus' perfect sacrifice on the cross gave us the right to boldly approach the throne of God, something the Old Testament saints did not have.  This concept of approaching God, was unheard of for the common man and would have been considered blasphemy.  Remember the Holy of Holies in the temple?  It was where the Shekinah Glory dwelt, or the very presence of God.  Only the high priest coul…

How To Pray Like A Pro: Part 1

Prayer has always fascinated me.  To think that we have the ability to actually talk to God!  The same God that took dirt from the ground and made a living, breathing man, the same God that protected Shadrach, Meshach and Abendnego in a blazing fiery furnace, the same God that stitched me together in my mother's whom, made DNA and knows every hair on my head...I could go on and on!  I've often tried to grasp the concept of talking to God but I find it's like trying to grasp the concept of eternity, impossible.

I've experienced both highs and lows in prayer.  The high?  When God answers a specific prayer in very specific way.  The low?  When you pray for something for so long and never see it answered.  Have you ever been so discouraged that you don't even know what to pray for?  I love this verse in Romans chapter 8; "the spirit helps us in our weakness.  We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groa…

Who's Rowing Your Boat?

This past Monday night I had the privilege of speaking to 100 woman at a local church event.  The topic was anxiety, based on my blog post from October.  Let me summarize that post and also add some new details:  this past October I had an anxiety attack.  For 3 hours straight I cried and poured out my heart to my husband leaving me exhausted on every level.  Why?  My husband is a pastor and although we have always been involved in churches and with various ministries, we have been waiting 9.5 years for a full time pastoral position.  In those years I estimate we have sent out around 100 resumes all coming back with a blaring NO.  With every compounding no I felt defeated, unqualified and frustrated.
My husband and I have been attentive to God's voice and are confident that he has placed us exactly where he wanted us these past 9.5 years but our hearts have never stopped yearning for full time ministry.  Because of this desire and in anticipation of a call to a church,  we chose …

The Most Disfunctional Family in America

I'm sure we're all familiar with the verse, "don't let the sun go down on your anger."  It's the advice given to so many newly married couples, to never to go bed angry.  While that is a nice sentiment, that verse is not talking about the relationship between husband and wife, but the relationship of the church body!
It's mixed in with over 25 phrases about what the body of Christ (the church) should look like in Ephesians chapter 4.
Another spoiler: it's not talking about going to bed angry.  The phrase "don' let the sun go down" is another way of saying, don't let it be completed.  In this case the "it" is anger.  If you have a grievence with someone, you are not to let it go so far that you don't even desire to resolve it.  I have seen this happen so many times within churches and Christian ministries!
How many of you know a church that lost members over the color of the new carpet, or paint color,  or if the entran…

Learning to Stand Firm while Laying Down Everything

This little wooden cross may not stand out to you.  There is certainly nothing extravagant about it, yet it is a treasure to me.  It's not the look of it that makes it special but rather the materials it is made from.  This cross is made from the lumber of the home of Nate Saint, a missionary pilot martyred in Ecuador in 1956 and my husband's great uncle.
Nate, along with 5 other young men, journeyed to the jungles of Ecuador to evengelize the isolated natives of the Waorani tribe.  Already having made successful contact with a few natives earlier, the 5 men landed on the beach of the Curaray River in hopes to make further contact.  It was then around 10 Waorani warriors attacked them, spearing all 5 five men to death.
While the story doesn't end there, it is the sacrifice of these men that often weighs on my mind.  The little cross, which I recieved from my mother in law, the niece of Nate Saint, is an amazing symbol and reminder of what it means to give your all for C…